thiswallinside: ([nervous] awkwarrrrrd)
thiswallinside ([personal profile] thiswallinside) wrote2010-04-18 09:29 pm

13th arrest | voice | i'm breaking down and you're breathing slowly

So, having curse sex with Castle hasn't really changed much. I mean granted, it was only a few days ago, and I've been holed up with paperwork trying to figure out what kind of funds we can pull together to build a new prison. Plus I haven't been laid in way too long.

But when they show it in the movies, people having sex on a desk? It looks a lot sexier than in reality. I have this kink in my back that's not going to be coming out without some real work on it.

And I was actually surprised, because Castle apparently isn't all bluster. He's definitely a manslut though, with how he knows his way around a woman--oh my God. Shut up, Beckett. Shut up, shut up, shut up.

[fumbling. with. device.]

Filter, please come on, if Alexis sees this-- shit! It was bound to happen, and everyone kind of knew that, it's just I didn't want to admit it-- stupid curses!

[still more fumbling.]

At least there was protection, right? [hands clamped over mouth, but audible if you listen:] And the handcuffs were readily available, which is such a cheesy cop stereotype but hey I was just using what I had available to me...

[/end voice]

[ooc; Cursed with My Dirty Little Secret, to reveal her roll in the hay with Castle during Jet Fighters and Punches!]

[identity profile] cry-reaper.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 02:13 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, really?

[identity profile] cuffyoutwice.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 03:24 am (UTC)(link)
Definitely. I think it was a lot of the unresolved uh, tension? Finally getting resolved. And seriously if you want to be kind to me, you can. We'll talk about puppies. Or French politics or something completely other than the fact that he's actually much stronger than appearances might belie.

[identity profile] cry-reaper.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 03:30 am (UTC)(link)
I have not doubt that he was, he certainly seems the... virile type.

[identity profile] cuffyoutwice.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 03:43 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, definitely made up for his smart mouth with the energy. Willingness to please goes a long way, you know?

I'm never going to live this down.

[identity profile] cry-reaper.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 03:46 am (UTC)(link)
It does, it really does. But you shouldn't be ashamed, Detective. There's nothing wrong with enjoying the pleasures of another.

[identity profile] cuffyoutwice.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 04:12 am (UTC)(link)
Usually I'm not, to be honest. It's just-- it's Castle. We were never supposed to go that far. No matter how fantastic it was.

[identity profile] cry-reaper.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 04:24 am (UTC)(link)
So it was good, then, was it?

[identity profile] cuffyoutwice.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 04:27 am (UTC)(link)
You're as bad as he is! Yes, it was. He's very, uh, sweet.

[identity profile] cry-reaper.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 04:32 am (UTC)(link)
For someone who's spending her nights alone, I take comfort that others are being satisfied.

[identity profile] cuffyoutwice.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 04:40 am (UTC)(link)
Well, that's usually me, to be honest so I definitely understand. And satisfied is really an understatement, but I'm sure you'll read the good parts in the book he's publishing here.

Have you not-- is it because of your ability?

[identity profile] cry-reaper.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 04:43 am (UTC)(link)
I certainly hope to.

No, my abilities are under control, but I just... I can get close to someone, but at a certain point... I just can't.

[identity profile] cuffyoutwice.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
Tell me about it. I'm kind of relieved that I got hit with the other end of that curse. It's complicated with Castle, but it's hard to-- I understand. I'm not good at letting down my guard.

[identity profile] cry-reaper.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 04:58 am (UTC)(link)
[There's a pause.]

Right.

[identity profile] cuffyoutwice.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 05:03 am (UTC)(link)
...I'm way off base right now, aren't I? [She chuckles wryly. At least she's not talking about her escapades anymore.]

[identity profile] cry-reaper.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 05:09 am (UTC)(link)
Not... I'm sorry. I don't mean to bother you with my problems, Detective.

[identity profile] cuffyoutwice.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
It's no bother, and maybe it'll help if you call me Kate. I can't promise to empathize completely with you, and I don't have a lot of experience understanding how having extraordinary traits would affect a person's life. But I'm pretty good at just listening, if you want to talk, mara.

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[identity profile] cry-reaper.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 05:26 am (UTC)(link)
I haven't been able to have sex since my... death. I don't know what's wrong with me - I get close, but I start to panic.

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[identity profile] cuffyoutwice.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, Mara. Can you tell what exactly makes you panic? You don't have to tell me, of course. But if it's psychological, maybe you can get some help.

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[identity profile] cry-reaper.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 05:53 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know. I only started going out again recently. And that scares me enough.

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[identity profile] cuffyoutwice.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 05:58 am (UTC)(link)
It's normal, though I don't know if that's reassuring. You could be suffering from PTSD or something similar. I'm not sure that it necessarily affects sex drive, but any other questions I might ask would be pretty intrusive.

Is there anything I can do for you? I might be able to find someone for you to talk to, through the station. Someone that could actually help, I mean.

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[identity profile] cry-reaper.livejournal.com 2010-04-19 10:21 pm (UTC)(link)
I... I just don't know. My life still feels... very hazardous most of the time.

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[identity profile] cuffyoutwice.livejournal.com 2010-04-26 07:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Well. It's up to you. Drop me a line if you change your mind. Or if you need to talk again.